In Awakening Embrace

Passion wakes my feelings up
Like the frost of pure snow
From oblivion through time
In ethereal wings I travel

Where’s the sealed door?
Where your desired heart beats
So many ways, fields of imagination
Fears and memories blend to mistrust

Silken words wrap me
To a deep soundless sleep
A seducing melody leads me
Faster, I swirl to your temptation

Is this where I cease to exist?
Where everything forged into light
All these emotions I don’t want to fight

Purple moonlight, the angel eyes
Upon my soul, misses no spot

Silken words wrap me
To a deep soundless sleep
Desert place in this nightfall
Faster, I hide in the velvet sea

Dethroned from heaven
You take me to paradise

Freezing night softly covers me
And your warmth makes me scream out loud
I finally can see through the storm, no doubts

All these suffocated voices lead to you

When Skies Are Silent

[Grunts:]
The skies silenced, earth trembled
Holy chains are broken
Hell’s doors are open
Deliverer, god’s mercy is exhausted
Sinner, your ignorance won’t be forgotten

[Clear vocals:]
And how can we evade the burning end?

[Choir:]
Dominate
The ruins
The ashes

[Grunts:]
No chants pronounce world’s pain
Our prays echo and fade
In the howling wilderness they cry
The skies silenced and we died

[Clear vocals:]
And how can we evade the burning end?
How can we resist?
We are weak, our blood is thin

[Soprano:]
The light and the night become one
Under the command of the unholy son

[Sreams:]
O priests of fury, run
Hide your faces in those velvet rags
From the blood wine the holiness you miss
You won’t find it in ancient rites

[Clear vocals:]
But we can evade this burning end
Its in our power to control our fate

[Choir:]
Vociferate
The truth
The skies

Lost for the time being

Don’t look back…
Its all cold and undone
Circling screams, vicious cries
Deceiving truth of velvet lies

I can’t go on with these scars
Untide me from false promises
Were never meant to be given
Try to believe…

Is this where it leads??
Orientation is what we need
I’m lost within my own words
Grieving the one I cannot hold
The one who I really am

Winter hopes of flaming dreams
Hold me to my insanity
A sound of soft vanity
Try to forget and forgive…

Is this where it leads??
Orientation is what I need
I’m lost within my own world
Grieving the one I cannot hold

[Bridge:]
Cry for the deepest wounds reveal who we really are
Cry for all the thoughts of desperation begin
to mourn, to call,
to shape in fears,
to lie, to dream
its all in…me

Is this where it leads??
Orientation is what I need
Through snow paths I found myself
The one I really am

Illusive beliefs and fake needs
Lost from the world
Found within
Light in the dark is so stronger to see

Happy Trip

People, places, moments
are a bunch of colours
and I'm pale

I'm waiting for the night
to cover all my cry
and wish upon the stars
to see your sight

But now you are here
and your warmth makes me feel
makes me feel alive again

[Chorus]
Come and take me to the flowers
Make my world move fast
Bath me with your scent
I feel complete

I'm finally enjoying time
my heart beats like a clock
Ooh how much I've missed it

Cause now you are here
holding my hands
and lifting my soul up

[Chorus]
Come and take me to the flowers
Make my clouds move fast
Bath me with your scent
I feel complete

These words drive me deeper
in your methistic sound I dance
And I can finally breathe...

[Chorus]
Come and take me to the flowers
Make my world move fast
Bath me with your scent
and with your touch I feel complete

Inviolate

Ex candesco en invidia

(Sweats and freezes
He feels emasculated)
All his devilish thoughts keep hunting him
In flesh and bones from ashes and corpse
For his toxicated blood they crave

Widely open his methystic eyes
Before the ending of his might
Where his future lies
It’s in the cold winter night

In simulo vos proditionis

Chained in his own prison
Can’t escape from oblivious guilt
Can’t find unshakeable faith to resist

Fears his reflection to face
In the misty forest he’s lost
Deep in a labyrinth he loathes the most
Thirsty vampires observing his fear
Desiring one eternal bloodred tear

Then shadows of silent words
Came to haunt in form
His futile present
In the lonely path
He continues to run
Ignoring the gloom of an honest heart

Trying to set free from binds
Unreleased he falls in lethargic sleep
Touched by a devouring pain
Wrapped in suspicion, it seems in vain
Whispers and weeps left him accursed

Short-lived asthmatic breath
Calling his ghosts to this painting of death
Thousand demonic loves grieving dogmatically
The loss of a last secterian eventide
While a red cold moon rises

Vestra severitas mei placo

Blur memories pronouncing the awakening
As fortitude raises in remembrance of bright shining
Gnawing doubts of own abilities extinguish
His life he doesn’t will to relinquish

As he passes expeditiously
through the seraphic dark tunnel
Finds the exit in the lake
His way he is now able to take

Beyond Emotions & Thoughts

This is my second compilation of songs/lyrics
It contains some songs about general concerns of mine and some more personal insights

Tracklist:

01. Inviolate
02. Happy Trip
03. Lost for the Time Being
04. When Skies Are Silent
05. In Awakening Embrace
06. Sand Castles (Oneiromancy)
07. Hand of Exile
08. A Cyclist's Day
09. Disease & A Heart
10. The Nine Hells
11. De Profundis (From Deep Within)
12. Remaining Words

B-side: Melancholic Sight

this was the first version of Melancholic Euphoria
As you can read it changed drastically

Melancholic Sight (Melancholic Euphoria demo)

I see there is no future for me
Words full of lies and pity
Buried under a false promise
Not able to follow with life
No love or sympathy

In this life I’m a parasite
Everything I hate is all I am
A conformist who hides and fakes
suppresses his desires
who knows that no one loves truly

Your heart's door is closed
and you’ve hidden the key
If only I could find it
and then I’d be finally happy
If only I had you
but…

In this life I’m a parasite
Everything I loathe is all I am
A conformist who hides and fakes
suppressing my desires
cause I know I’m not welcomed

I can only know pain
All it seems in vain

But I’ll insist and persist
Till bitter end takes me
These drops of love can be my faith
This blank life can fill with a kiss

I'll embrace sadness and
I will fake a smile again
I’ll hide all my feelings
Deep in my hurted heart

And I will wait, I will crave
I will pray until you say
The word that’ll make me stay
(in this world)