Love on a Paper

I’m sitting in my bedroom
dreaming about you
Dreaming that you are here with me
I’m gazing at the ceiling
Like we could do together
but you are away from here

I don’t need your body, a simple substitute
I need your heart, your eyes, your smile
Screaming your name inside my mind
Only whispers in reality

A word from your lips
Is like a gift from god
Or a knife that cuts so deep

How to kill my thoughts?
How to drown this inner flame?
Every ounce of me calls for you
Just one look at your eyes
And my heart jumps to the sky

But you don’t know how I feel
Or ignore it by will
In a million ways I could alter just for you
but would you even notice it?

This dream ends with a tear
A tear I cannot cry
For this love is forbidden
Doesn't let me speak out loud
My warm feelings for you
But my mouth is sealed by fear

Hope you find the path of bliss
Even if I’m not part of it
I know you can fulfill your desires
I only wish my soul was a part of you

When will I be able to say how much I love you?
When will I stop wasting love on a paper?

I won’t cry for attention
In silence I’ll stay if you want
But I’ll always think of you
while I’m sitting in this room

"written for someone somewhere in 2004"