Into the Locked Chamber

The 4th compilation of lyrics that I've written is based on the human relationships. Everyone has entered the Locked Chamber and there you can find love, disappointment, tears, hope, lies and light

Tracklist:

01. The Circle
02. Accepting our Truth
03. Only In Yesterday
04. Lead the Way
05. Behind Closed Doors
06. Of a Loss
07. She Said
08. Pectora Lenta
I. The Gathering Storm
II. Peace
09. On the Verge of Tomorrow
10. Mute Walls
11. Carnage
12. Trophy of Hearts

B-side: Healed?

Response to Heal (Tactile Gemma)

Burn down the vines that restrict joy
The willow roots have gone too deep
Poison nourished its thorns
Crimson from the blood

I want to be healed for the sickness to come

Merciless and fearless the sand dessert
Engulfs every step towards life
That’s what’s left of me
Half as the ecliptic moon

The flesh reflects the torture of thirsty knifes
While the pain flows in my tears to the exit
Bloodred ground drain them
Screaming while corpses lay on it

The Last Initiation

[Male vocals:]
Never will the mountain sand
Taste the salty kiss of the sea
Never will the transparent clouds
Feel the embrace of the ground

[Grunts:]
Never will the storm hear the silence
Never did nature create such violence
Never should we disturb the balance
Never should we betray our alliance (?)

[Female vocals:]
Never again will I feel complete
Never again will I be missed
Nobody will ever make me believe
Nobody shall ever heal my wounds

[Screams:]
Never will I join their initiation rite
Never will I kneel to beliefs I deny
Never shall I compromise
No more!

[Soprano:]
No one must suffer in vain
No child must feel our pain
[Whispers:]
When did our sympathy drain?

Seven Sirens and A Silver Tear

music by Sirenia

(0:17)
A star falls in the night
Its light will fade and die
The awakening of ancient tales
Behold in the darkest seas and oceans

(0:53)
The beauty is free from stones again
And oblivion will remember them once more

(1:12)
Time crossovers past and present
The moment the sirens froze died

(1:29)
So beautiful their hymn
So frail their calling
So deceiving their love
So forlorn their kiss

(2:05)
Beware the Medusa’s eyes, don’t look
With them they want to take you
Forever to sail on unknown seas
Forever to be their lover in death

(2:41)
The black seas turn blue
The sky breaks the silence
Something is moving
Faster in the clouds
The sirens swim to hide
Silver tears they cry
How the long for one more night

(2:50)
Sun is rising
Red and hot
(2:59)
The spell will break
They must return
To a myth
Seven loves
Are taken away
Sailor’s hope
(3:26)
The spell is breaking by day
Seven Sirens must return to stone

(3:35)
Primo sole erimus inferi

(4:09)
Another night they will wait
To sing their sirenia song
Enchanting, beautiful
Lost in stone, forever more, they’ll come

Aeternus: In Perpetual Quest # 2

Walking with humans without destination
Beyond emotions and thoughts a salvation
Life scared me away

And they believe I’m a spirit

Ghost of the past I couldn’t change
Come to remind me I have no power
Upon the things that should leave me weak

Voiceless they ask me for answers
When I’m flooded with questions
Their eyes of nostalgia taught me
The meaning of returning to home

Why plead for oblivion?
Let the memories stay
Moments unforgettable remain
Why are we crying?

And I cry as I lose something that was never mine
As I lose the biggest part of myself in this perpetual quest

They wonder why I travel alone
Nobody knows eternity is my home
And it possesses my soul in patience
Where honesty has become my essence
Death was scared away

Have I survived in this quest?
Fill with breath my chest
Passing moments won’t bleed
Am I caught in between?

And I cry for everything that I didn’t give
As this part of myself only I have seen

Purple Jellyfish Dance

A legless clown climbs to your bed
With a free ticket to his museum of corpses
[Soprano:] Swinger’s lure!
Crying smiley Jokers wax the trophies
With their two-edged snake tongues

Grave cracks open but no zombie inside
[Soprano:] Back-Stabbing!
The weeping whore dances in her red dress
Upon her husbands imprisoning empty coffin
Cemetery’s perfume awakes the pumpkins
Another year they’ll feast on each others soup

[Choir:]
If I was invisible among ghosts

For a handshake with an anorexic mermaid I stretch
From her jewel shell grains fall flooding my floor
It turns into quicksand engulfing me
[Soprano:] Amity!
Riding shark-worms in a circus aquarium
Elegant performer during the jellyfish dance

[Choir:]
If I could feel purple jellyfish sting

Zombie lover waving from undead crowd
[Soprano:] Disclaimer!
Warm poison racing with my blood
Whoever wins to the cold brain end

Locked in sand tower is the puppet princess
Insane in her megalomaniac mortal search
[Soprano:] Arrogance!

[Choir:]
We are the firewalkers

No applaud, theater’s lights are off
The zombie drowses with juggler’s show
Drunken magician locked in imaginary box
[Soprano:] Failure!

Transparent electro-bringers gather
Swimming in a fosse full of lost letters
Still mother whore dances on broken heels
And even humans laugh at the pumpkins

Sympathize with War

Why do I care what’s wrong and right?
Everyone does what’s on their mind
Be the judge that steals away light
Uncover misery before clear sight

What year did I wake?
What disaster did we make?
Never loathe what we’ve become
Drink from fountains full of blood
Black plague upon our children

Curse the sky and burn the land
Wash our guilt from your hands
Violence creates violence
Sympathize with the war

Break us down!
Steal it away!

Drops of poison from your tongue
Deadly, falling and you ignore
Kills the slaves on their knees
Compromised they kiss your feet

Useless efforts have gone to waste
By one nothing can be changed
Hate carries hate
War brings war

Liar! Feed us hypocrisy
Liar! Entice the mass
Under your shallow conspiracy
Selling courage that no one has

None I’ve followed and none I will
With my fears alone I shall deal

I now see what you’ve denied
All the cries you have silenced
Be the judge that steals away light

Malak Al-Hag (Angel of Truth)

A saint with open arms
For a safe shelter in pain
Life falls down and breaks
In tears she searches for remedy
On the ground there is no god

[Grunts:]
Words of the illusionist
Father’s preach of lies
Built in moldering ruins
The temple you blindly serve

Cry on me, I’ll ease your mind
Like opium it will awake you
For once to be disillusioned
To believe beyond existence
No agony she feels now

[Grunts:]
Blasphemies of the fatalist
Litanies echoed as hymns
Deprivation and disease
The paradise you kill to bring

Will lead you the siren song
Shall awareness be your guide
Only god knows how you feel
Breathe in the saint’s words

[Grunts:]
Humanity will cower again
Run and pray for redemption
Before the gates of shame
She will find condescension

[Grunts & Screams:]
Breathe in the saint’s words
And words they’ll ever stay
In dust from dust your body turns
For nothing in return

[Whispers:]
Malak Al-Hag
No grace in human
He is but flesh

[Choir & Grunts:]
Hail O Tyrant
Hail O God
For you we wade in mud
Like the blade of Nephilim
They bend and kneel for Him

Aevum: In Perpetual Quest #1

A snake crawls in forbidden gardens
Like discord it invades to find new home
Enthroned as ancient kings it dictates
Those that are trapped by beliefs

Remote wind blows
Blows away the remnants of hope
Oh All-healing time
Time can close these deep wounds
Memories fly away on their chariot
But what can be forgotten?

[Piano-Violin:]
Remember no longer what you’ve lived
The key to the meaning of life
Hold it forever in this perpetual quest

A stranger wanders around tormented lands
Like nomads our wishes find new homes
To put down roots and grow strong trees
For those that long to escape in forests
Where no human will ever set foot on
And peace will bloom inside the wanderers

Oh All-healing time
Time can close these deep wounds
Memories fly away on their chariot
Everything can be forgotten
Break though another reverie

[Piano-Violin]
In words taken by the wind do not entrust

Discord invades new found homes
Like a snake it crawls in forbidden gardens

From the Mist

So close this gloom that scares
Our lives away

Pale faces mourn upon me
Their pain I’m dying to steal
While silver frost wraps me tight
Nothing to feel, my mouth is sealed
A bleeding grave drowns in a sea

[Grunts:]
Deeper and deeper
Where the ocean burns
And the waters are red

In emerald mountains their hymns
Praise a beauty long forsaken
Building bridges to an unknown sky

A boat is coming from the mist
I can’t hear them now
The tide has come inshore
To wash their voices away
It heralds only to perish life

Cold rain starts to fall
But no clouds in this grey sky
Raindrops feel like tears

As I leave everything that’s warm
Trust those whispers in the wind
And as I walk on this bridge of yours
Try not to keep me prisoner in stone tomb

So close this gloom that scares
Our lives away

23:47

(former title: That Which Will Never Be Frozen)

Swansong emerged trembling from a deep well
As it’s left behind to watch seasons pass by

[Female Screams:]
All I remember
Is lying eyes
Devoid

And spirits of Furies
Scream their fallacious temptation
In their comforting arms
They smother and take me closer
To the gates of obscurity

Most bloodred words have become a sea
These mirror waters call to be one with myself
Inside to dissolve, forever frozen to be

[Mezzo-soprano:]
An elegian morning will break
The shadows of my aesthesia

This madness is no longer restrained
And spirits of screaming Furies
Threaten with their smokey claws
Erelong they will evanesce
Not as their scars left on skin

[Screams:]
Scream and walk
Only a few steps
Away from cradle
Where hearts rest

Why has the sand in my hourglass stopped falling?
My sun dial has declined, it seems so
That which would never be frozen

[Operatic vocals and grunts:]
Gather in me storm!
Return to me sun!
Come back sanity!
Leave me without caress

These Wasted Seasons

To disobey, to surpass those boundaries
One more time to fool my notions

Clarify me, free of self-deceit

Illuminate this darkest side of me
Failed to become what I could be
In the essence of all life
I’m caught in between
[Soprano and screams:]
Sophisticated and futile

To wade in mediocrity and self absorption
So many lights devoured in the ocean of my sorrow
Where you, my lonely night, are

[Soprano A capella:]
These mirror eyes
Reflecting day’s vanity
In bitter tears

Alius Artus
Can it break the circle?
I wish I knew all the truth
Out of my distressing contemplations

[Clear vocals and grunts:]
Help me overtake this empty body
To retrieve a pure piece I lost
Lost in the attempt to escape from this vain world

Divine Guardian

My God, creator of our fragile home
Have our actions caused your rage?
Is this why mothers cry?
Is this why million people die?

Soprano:
For you we spill our blood?

Grunts:
To serve you they hide and burn the truth
To please you, demons will drink wine and bread

Crown of clouds won’t make me fear
With a breath you can make me disappear
I won’t believe your salving theories, henceforth

Clear vocals and Grunts:
I cannot willingly blind my comprehension

Why do the young ones suffer?
Why don’t sinners pay?
Is this a throne among angels?
Is this why we have no choice?

Grunts:
For your kingdom people will condemn the saints
For what you offer companions kill a holding hand
We wait for the dawn that shall never come

Choir:
Delusions of faith
Empire in a rotten day

Soprano:
My heart cannot bare this misery, no more

Choir:
Are we damned to hope?
Are we forgotten by the lord?
Is this how its supposed to be?
What’s gone wrong and where is their grief?

Among your holy slaves, I know I’m a liar
For isn’t Devil a servant of thee?
We are left alone with shallow faith

Incedo Angelorum (Prelude)

Baritone:
March of Angels

Choir:
Reveal the hour
Of the Black Sun
Evoken spirits embrace the call
Where waters reflect despair
Bridges of Time are forcing life
To form another painful circle

Soprano lyrico:
O life, how close you are to death

Soprano dramatico:
Bell, toll!
For the falling leaves
Of humanity

The Coercive Inititation

This one is the third compilation of lyrics that I've written
The themes behind the words go deeper and can be seen from different perspectives

Tracklist:

01. Incedo Angelorum (Prelude)
02. Divine Guardian
03. These Wasted Seasons
04. 23:47 (That Which Will never Be Frozen)
05. From the Mist
06. Aevum: In Perpetual Quest #1
07. Malak Al-Hag (Angel of Truth)
08. Sympathize With War
09. Purple Jellyfish Dance
10. Aeternus: In Perpetual Quest # 2
11. Seven Sirens and A Silver Tear
- music by Sirenia
12. The Final Initiation

B-side: In Pure Embrace

This is an alternative version of In Awakening Embrace, a more "pure" interpretation of its meaning

In Awakening Embrace (Pure Version)

Like the frost of pure snow
My feelings wake me up
From oblivion through time
In ethereal wings I travel

Where’s the sealed door?
Where your desired heart beats
So many ways, fields of imagination
Fears and memories blend to mistrust

Silken words wrap me
To a deep soundless sleep
Slowly, shadows are shaping to face
Faster, I’m falling into your eyes

Is this where I cease to exist?
Where everything forged into night
All these fears I’m unable to fight

Purple moonlight, the angel eyes
Upon my soul, misses no spot

Silken words wrap me
To a deep soundless sleep
Desert place in this nightfall
Faster, I hide in my shameful sea

Dethroned from heaven, seducer
Leave me in awakening embrace

Freezing heights softly hypnotize me
Reality’s bareness makes me scream out loud
I finally can see through the storm, no doubts

All these suffocated voices lead to you

Remaining Words

In the night obscure vision foretold
Waking from a nightmare to face another
Your departure smashed dreams into reality
what once was full of life and warmth...
is now as cold as a distant memory

Following the leading lights
there shall find lost love
to join for the rest of eternity
while behind are left weeping shadows

Mourning for her
The ending so cruel
No last farewell
Our rage dwells in hell

...Time races fast
you now belong to the past
though unforgetful your life is
in my heart finds its peace

I see you without open eyes
Beyond me your beauty floats
Beyond what's real in my mind you roam
Stay with me, fragile I am
For your absence made me half
Your presence forever lingers on my thoughts

Gazing behind a wall
Reflections like on water
slowly fading away with sun
carved into remaining words

Circle of life inevitably ends
In bitter tears they must learn
This key to another world is necessary
with her their love they didn't bury

De Profundis

(translation in Latins: from deep within)

Cries as the pale light breaks the mystification
Never knew they could be adored
Shared a life so blackened
The misery could not let them live

O Death, give me your hand
Near you I seek my peace
My mind again cannot dream
With this last heart piece

He craved for hope while
Moon Luster shed tears in help

Now it breathes in serenity
The tide is gone with his angel of night
It broke the rocks he lived in
With a force that warmed his tortured skin

But the bleakness caught him
Feels more painful than ever
The sight of leaving marked
that autumn scenery forever

For a while he sensed
that the sound of silence
had changed two lives

[Grunts:]
A scream to leave...
Cleaved wings...

Doomed to rest in solitude, in stone body
Wondering through seas and dust
His call could no one hark

Dies in a final glimpse
Eyelids heavily closed
He is now safe and quiet
in his beautiful dream

I felt like I needed you
but didn't realise in all my tragedy
It was you that needed to fly with me

The Nine Hells

Behind the curse I hide in shame
Who is the one to define the real me?

The paralysing poison brings me to surface
I'm the one to take control of your inability

Cruel past has left its scars on me
I cannot face the future, I need to sleep

Its more than a sleep
Slowly death of your last living piece

But how can you judge if you never felt?
No one can understand my grief, my agony

Remove the cloak of misery
Before our body cracks from ferocity

Rage and sadness won't fade away
I am doomed from this phobic present

Your actions have doomed your will
Defenceless you are by choice not by need

Powerless and frail, weak and alone
How can the fears and demons be gone?

If you resist, don't give up so easily
Bliss shines upon the hidden tranquillity

My soul and dreams are haunted by angels
My body's infirmity can't help me escape from decay

It needs time to heal your lost sanity
Those means have also diseased your lucidity

You speak the faded truth
Why weren't you beside me in my darkest hours?

Paranoia and illusions had suppressed my voice
You are blind and deaf when colours become noise

Drugs have made me a savage outsider
Redeem me please from the sin of my unwillingness

Forever here I am, trust your fortitude
Faith and Patience, together there is no solitude

There are always two sides
Persistence to retrieve the wasted life

Inner self will make you see the hopeful sights
No more anguish for we have faced the Nine Hells

Disease & A Heart

Another night visits me

Again these haunting sights
Again this drowning feeling
Leave my tears fall
And I know…
I know I have to fight it alone

Take care of myself
For all I can
For my own desires
But I know…
I know I can’t stop thinking of you

Break these illusions
Break this hope of glass
For those fragile minutes
I need to feel you here with me
And I know…
I know you are away from what I dream

Breathing with difficulty
Struggling these words to speak
With blur memories to hold on
A long sleep to heal my sick heart

Hold me in all my sadness
Liberate me
Embracer for one last time
I know…
I know I will always love you
With all I am
With all its left from me

A Cyclist's Day

Its in the cyclist's road
all the happy and sad scenes

Beautiful but lonely
Silent and calm
A sea of clouds travel together
Trees are waving softly to him
Wind sings a forgotten elegy

Passes the imposing buildings
Between smog and noise he is pure
Forces himself to move faster
He feels his soul depressed

Ooh free spirit, warm heart
A clear mind out of this madness

Sun rays hit his cheerful eyes
And all the beauty of our land revealed
Vivid flowers cheerish his presence
Leaving their sweet scent behind
So he can find the way back to them

Ooh free spirit, warm heart
A clear mind out of this madness

Exhausted day pass the sky to wakeful night
Its blue velvet veil is falling
Stars are smiling
Stars are sparkling
Asking for his wishes

Then he turns his face up
There he wants one day to run
White Moon shows earth's past
and promises air's future
For him a new cycling day

Ooh free spirit, warm heart
A clear mind out of this madness
Such a hopeful sight and simple

Hand of Exile

[Bridge:]
And then blood tears of Him
who bares the wooden burden of humanity
will make your spirit shiver

And the bright halo
above His crown of thorns
will make you regret and wonder

[Grunts:]
Sell your souls again
Your arrogance disgusts me
How dare you close those void eyes
before the impact of your actions

Can't you see you're a fool
In His hands just another tool

[Grunts and operatic vocals:]
But time has ran out
for He whose light brings the darkness
will make you tremble and fear
Fear the infernal nights that await
the doomed days to leave

Don't try not to hear this aggravating melody
For my wrath is unleashed and my voice will speak

[Grunts and Choir:]
Luciferian wings embrace them
drag them deeper to Erevos

Through another cthonic storm
Armies of furious angels I command to you

Dreamer, believer, killer
Prayer, healer, sinner

[Operatic vocals:]
The illuminating rain will fall
and burn your ruthless skin

[Grunts:]
The alluring violins of sorrow start to play
As the 7th seal opens by your blackest prays

[Operatic vocals:]
Ethereal choirs soar their destruction hymn

Do not ask what is written
in the last verses of destiny
Can't you realise you're a fool
In His hands just another tool

Sand Castles (Oneiromancy)

As young kids we play with our hopes
As they play with gold sand
To build their precious castles
To open imaginary doors

Step by step, stone by stone
These goals of mine completed
With every effort, with every emotion
As colours shape to sceneries

Don't dream with doubts
They'll make you fall apart
Don't fear illusive failure
Its what will make you believe

Even if the wind blows those castles made on sand

Maybe my ambitions will fade with time
Maybe all the efforts will end up as sand
But what does it matter?
If I enjoyed the glow of a setting sun

Don't dream with doubts
They'll make you fall apart
Don't fear illusive failure
Its what will make you resist

Even if waves wash away those castles made on sand

Dreams are to be lived again
Another journey to a destiny
And even if its not what I thought
I still love this flight to unknown destination

And like in foretime I'll play again under the sunlight

In Awakening Embrace

Passion wakes my feelings up
Like the frost of pure snow
From oblivion through time
In ethereal wings I travel

Where’s the sealed door?
Where your desired heart beats
So many ways, fields of imagination
Fears and memories blend to mistrust

Silken words wrap me
To a deep soundless sleep
A seducing melody leads me
Faster, I swirl to your temptation

Is this where I cease to exist?
Where everything forged into light
All these emotions I don’t want to fight

Purple moonlight, the angel eyes
Upon my soul, misses no spot

Silken words wrap me
To a deep soundless sleep
Desert place in this nightfall
Faster, I hide in the velvet sea

Dethroned from heaven
You take me to paradise

Freezing night softly covers me
And your warmth makes me scream out loud
I finally can see through the storm, no doubts

All these suffocated voices lead to you

When Skies Are Silent

[Grunts:]
The skies silenced, earth trembled
Holy chains are broken
Hell’s doors are open
Deliverer, god’s mercy is exhausted
Sinner, your ignorance won’t be forgotten

[Clear vocals:]
And how can we evade the burning end?

[Choir:]
Dominate
The ruins
The ashes

[Grunts:]
No chants pronounce world’s pain
Our prays echo and fade
In the howling wilderness they cry
The skies silenced and we died

[Clear vocals:]
And how can we evade the burning end?
How can we resist?
We are weak, our blood is thin

[Soprano:]
The light and the night become one
Under the command of the unholy son

[Sreams:]
O priests of fury, run
Hide your faces in those velvet rags
From the blood wine the holiness you miss
You won’t find it in ancient rites

[Clear vocals:]
But we can evade this burning end
Its in our power to control our fate

[Choir:]
Vociferate
The truth
The skies

Lost for the time being

Don’t look back…
Its all cold and undone
Circling screams, vicious cries
Deceiving truth of velvet lies

I can’t go on with these scars
Untide me from false promises
Were never meant to be given
Try to believe…

Is this where it leads??
Orientation is what we need
I’m lost within my own words
Grieving the one I cannot hold
The one who I really am

Winter hopes of flaming dreams
Hold me to my insanity
A sound of soft vanity
Try to forget and forgive…

Is this where it leads??
Orientation is what I need
I’m lost within my own world
Grieving the one I cannot hold

[Bridge:]
Cry for the deepest wounds reveal who we really are
Cry for all the thoughts of desperation begin
to mourn, to call,
to shape in fears,
to lie, to dream
its all in…me

Is this where it leads??
Orientation is what I need
Through snow paths I found myself
The one I really am

Illusive beliefs and fake needs
Lost from the world
Found within
Light in the dark is so stronger to see

Happy Trip

People, places, moments
are a bunch of colours
and I'm pale

I'm waiting for the night
to cover all my cry
and wish upon the stars
to see your sight

But now you are here
and your warmth makes me feel
makes me feel alive again

[Chorus]
Come and take me to the flowers
Make my world move fast
Bath me with your scent
I feel complete

I'm finally enjoying time
my heart beats like a clock
Ooh how much I've missed it

Cause now you are here
holding my hands
and lifting my soul up

[Chorus]
Come and take me to the flowers
Make my clouds move fast
Bath me with your scent
I feel complete

These words drive me deeper
in your methistic sound I dance
And I can finally breathe...

[Chorus]
Come and take me to the flowers
Make my world move fast
Bath me with your scent
and with your touch I feel complete

Inviolate

Ex candesco en invidia

(Sweats and freezes
He feels emasculated)
All his devilish thoughts keep hunting him
In flesh and bones from ashes and corpse
For his toxicated blood they crave

Widely open his methystic eyes
Before the ending of his might
Where his future lies
It’s in the cold winter night

In simulo vos proditionis

Chained in his own prison
Can’t escape from oblivious guilt
Can’t find unshakeable faith to resist

Fears his reflection to face
In the misty forest he’s lost
Deep in a labyrinth he loathes the most
Thirsty vampires observing his fear
Desiring one eternal bloodred tear

Then shadows of silent words
Came to haunt in form
His futile present
In the lonely path
He continues to run
Ignoring the gloom of an honest heart

Trying to set free from binds
Unreleased he falls in lethargic sleep
Touched by a devouring pain
Wrapped in suspicion, it seems in vain
Whispers and weeps left him accursed

Short-lived asthmatic breath
Calling his ghosts to this painting of death
Thousand demonic loves grieving dogmatically
The loss of a last secterian eventide
While a red cold moon rises

Vestra severitas mei placo

Blur memories pronouncing the awakening
As fortitude raises in remembrance of bright shining
Gnawing doubts of own abilities extinguish
His life he doesn’t will to relinquish

As he passes expeditiously
through the seraphic dark tunnel
Finds the exit in the lake
His way he is now able to take

Beyond Emotions & Thoughts

This is my second compilation of songs/lyrics
It contains some songs about general concerns of mine and some more personal insights

Tracklist:

01. Inviolate
02. Happy Trip
03. Lost for the Time Being
04. When Skies Are Silent
05. In Awakening Embrace
06. Sand Castles (Oneiromancy)
07. Hand of Exile
08. A Cyclist's Day
09. Disease & A Heart
10. The Nine Hells
11. De Profundis (From Deep Within)
12. Remaining Words

B-side: Melancholic Sight

this was the first version of Melancholic Euphoria
As you can read it changed drastically

Melancholic Sight (Melancholic Euphoria demo)

I see there is no future for me
Words full of lies and pity
Buried under a false promise
Not able to follow with life
No love or sympathy

In this life I’m a parasite
Everything I hate is all I am
A conformist who hides and fakes
suppresses his desires
who knows that no one loves truly

Your heart's door is closed
and you’ve hidden the key
If only I could find it
and then I’d be finally happy
If only I had you
but…

In this life I’m a parasite
Everything I loathe is all I am
A conformist who hides and fakes
suppressing my desires
cause I know I’m not welcomed

I can only know pain
All it seems in vain

But I’ll insist and persist
Till bitter end takes me
These drops of love can be my faith
This blank life can fill with a kiss

I'll embrace sadness and
I will fake a smile again
I’ll hide all my feelings
Deep in my hurted heart

And I will wait, I will crave
I will pray until you say
The word that’ll make me stay
(in this world)

Borderline (Secta Epilogue)

[Choir:]
Taste your frontiers
The journey inside matters
Deny these shadows of yourself
No chains can hold us down
With bright wings we'll fly
Sun reveals new paths

Tripartio divido rem
Quia trias sunt magnum opere fortes
Repugno Fortunae

Leave sufferings behind

Epos of Knowledge

Disarming Truth

An ignominious truth has been revealed
Unexperienced eyes widely open
Facing the last hope vanishing
Silent tears burn my overshadowed skin

This glowing flame my own flagellation becomes
As I witness your painful actions
Trying to open you the door to bliss
While you reject the help from my hand

Return to deceitful tears
The ones that caused
these neverclosing wounds

Time can heal when we learn from the past
How can you not notice you are going wrong?

Unknown's Heir Legacy

Never shall I do what I know I'll regret
Why be one of those wasting lives?
Keeping my shrouded words buried
as an amulet till my own frail fall

Anew you can find your arduous destination
even as clouded these sights are

Shall my legacy become your guide in your trip
To explore the greatness to live and die for

Sepulchal hymnes sound as heavenly melodies

Wave of Trust

Spirit of flame, scion of storm
Under trustful aegis grow strong
Faith enforced
Thoughts enclosed
Farewell, for more...

Love on a Paper

I’m sitting in my bedroom
dreaming about you
Dreaming that you are here with me
I’m gazing at the ceiling
Like we could do together
but you are away from here

I don’t need your body, a simple substitute
I need your heart, your eyes, your smile
Screaming your name inside my mind
Only whispers in reality

A word from your lips
Is like a gift from god
Or a knife that cuts so deep

How to kill my thoughts?
How to drown this inner flame?
Every ounce of me calls for you
Just one look at your eyes
And my heart jumps to the sky

But you don’t know how I feel
Or ignore it by will
In a million ways I could alter just for you
but would you even notice it?

This dream ends with a tear
A tear I cannot cry
For this love is forbidden
Doesn't let me speak out loud
My warm feelings for you
But my mouth is sealed by fear

Hope you find the path of bliss
Even if I’m not part of it
I know you can fulfill your desires
I only wish my soul was a part of you

When will I be able to say how much I love you?
When will I stop wasting love on a paper?

I won’t cry for attention
In silence I’ll stay if you want
But I’ll always think of you
while I’m sitting in this room

"written for someone somewhere in 2004"

Impedimenta (Secta part III)

Now that I am here
overwhelmed by my own fantasies
The purgatoric insight will soon end
before the gate of salvation
where the threefold path leads

The way in front of me
is clouded and hidden
Delusive walls cease
my cathartic trip
Leaving the last part incomplete

[Piano:]
Diversed by thoughts
Can I continue, take the next step?
Shall I stay here while comforting unconsiousness
Hides what I could learn?

Silent struggle inside my head
Echoing voices in this empty present
Shall I venture what I can’t afford?
A choice will make the difference
of what is indistinct and inefficient

A decision will guide me or mislead me
[End of piano]

[Choir:]
The blinding clouds must dissolve
Inertia has taken over us
Everything seems inexpendient
Raise your moral shields
Atavistic feelings we can confront

[Grunts:]
Its all perilous in this infernal cage
An endless hunting without a change

[Screams:]
Mortify your arrogance
And dare to challenge
your fated self

Morass in pure beauty, infection of our world
In this pendulum of life no scattered faith
I am not one more who failed to complete

Nature’s Last Call

Mother Earth please heal my wounds
Take my toxicated blood deep in you
Breathe in me the cold sigh you’ve left
And all wilderness can wake me up

To face the denying eyes
Closing in front of suffering
In front of our believes

Holy ground turned into sand
Rainwater burning lustful skin

So strong to be so weaken
So generous to be ignored
But she knows the way
Back to innocence

Leaves into ashes
Air into smoke

[Choir:]
Don’t pretend you are blind
Witness the unforgivable misery

Beings carriers of death

The past foretold the cutting from the sky
The wind will bring back life
And water will fill the holes
Fire shall burn all those sins

And the smile will fade
when we realize what we have done

And the sun just a blur light

The gift is still inside
Hidden by greed
Rays of compassion she beams
But we fail to see

[Choir:]
Watching our fall
Never late to change
Always the ending judges the action
Don’t turn your face, she is the savior

No Tears for The Black Queen

Normal: The Last King - grunts, baritone
Italics: Black Queen - soprano

Enter the forest
Seduction's nest
From my voice you can't escape
You'll be forever mine

You'll be my Black Queen

In this crystal world
no tears for life
Leave everything behind
and kiss me love
cause its endless night

You are my Black Queen

Deep in this cold misery
I found a distant harmony

[Screams:]
Blood with blood
together we'll rule

Steal all light

[Screams:]
Everyone will pay
for hurting you

No mourns for me

Show them who you are
take my sword and dance
in this rain of blood
where our love is damned

The fire in your eyes
Toxicated with lies

[Whispers:]
Dare and enter my oppressed desires

Come, fullfill our common destiny
A road free of all agony
Same path without pain
Out of this world I have no name

I/You am/are the Black Queen

Raped soul, healed in hate
Reveal your face, I'm your deadly mate

In A Lost Paradise

Italics: Choir
Bold: Grunts
Normal: male vocals
Both: choir and grunts

(soprano, alto) All the sins committed
(baritone, tenor) In favor of our greed
(soprano, alto) All the blood spilled
(baritone, tenor) For our vision to be pleased

The heir of our grace
Descending without face

[Choir] (simultaneously):
But you know you'll be lost in abyss
This is another honor to abyss

Captured in a war you never wanted
Between fire, blades and rage
Demons, angels are all the same
Get armed cause you'll be drowned

This hell kills everyone
An unknown will we serve
Open your eyes and see
The rising doom has covered us

(baritone, tenor) Our thoughts confused
(alto, soprano) By a light misused
(baritone, tenor) Our fallen grace
(alto, soprano) Left no trace

We play the role of mice
In a lost paradise

[Choir] (simultaneously):
In this world so full of hate
What we fell is only hate

Captured in a war you never wanted
Between fire, blades and rage
Demons, angels are all the same
Get armed cause you'll be drowned

This hell kills everyone
An unknown will we serve
Open your eyes and see
The rising doom has covered us

Decipher the signs of secrey
and reveal an ancient mistery

Another Kingdom will rise
Decided by the roll of dice

Hear the sirens of your mind
Destruction seals the fate of mankind

Captured in a war you never wanted
Between fire, blades and rage
Demons, angels are all the same
Get armed cause you'll be drowned

This hell kills everyone
An unknown will we serve
Open your eyes and see
The rising doom has covered us

If you don't care, go on
But you will end up dead
Our burning hell awaits
for its great defender
(Burn with me!!!)

Bright as Light (Secta part II)

Italics: Choir
Normal: male or female vocals
Bold: screams

I was afraid I couldn't do anything
Felt so useless, I felt so week
But didn't know that the only force
is the hidden strength within
Still looking higher

Living in a shadow
In a happy hallusination
I was a blind machine

They make us believe
we are nothing
A manipulation we never see
We are fools

Descending from a fake heaven
I learned one thing
You have to reach the bottom
So you can rise to chase the dream

There is no prophecy or destiny
We write our future with our beliefs
This dogma of nothingness
enlarges our insecurity
Become aware

Follow the wave, go with the wind
That's the mistake ever person makes
But its necessary to understand
You have to raise your hand, touch the stars

Beyond a shadow of doubt
With an iron heart
Running athwart an army
Searching for the exit in the dust
the exit to a world I lust

Tantum Hostium
Utinam Viveret

Break the walls around your mind
Still looking higher

Tanquam nox
[Whispers:]
Effulgence

Timeless Beauty

Normal: female vocals
Italics: operatic vocals
Bold: both vocals

The clouds stare from the night sky
and the leaves dance with the wind
While a princess is locked in her tower
caught in an imaginary web by will

She can't face the world
Cause her mirror broke
from her semblance
Never knew acceptance
She now looks into the glass
will never touch the green grass

Her bed is her tomb
The only world she saw
Is this cage of stone

Cold tears from a warm heart
Remembering the last words
of the witch so beloved
"Beauty is a state of mind"

Can't decide, leave her coffin
or be released by trusted knife

Gathering left devotion
She needs no potion
Takes a breath
and passes her door

Now she sees
The only beauty is within
Can't believe she wasted life
on a fake shield

As she touches a tree
Her soul accepts the defeat
With a smile she falls
taking the river path to god

Melancholic Euphoria

While Melancholy overcomes me
Euphoria takes me in imaginary places
Where your candle’s flame is bright enough
To rescue me from loneliness’ darkness
Your arms blanket to cold cruelty
Pure heart devoted to you

Light comes to my eyes
Is it real or just another illusion?
It doesn’t matter cause now
this dream can become reality

I can’t only know pain
I’ll chase your light
even if it is in vain
No tears block my sight

But I’ll insist and persist
till bitter end takes me
These drops of love can be my faith
This blank life can fill with a kiss

With the water I’ll rinse my face
and try to remove sadness
I will fake a smile again
And I’ll hide emotions
deep in my hurted heart

And I will wait, I shall crave
I must pray until you say
the word that’ll make me stay
(in this world)

Desperate for Hope (Secta part I)

Bold: grunts/growls, male operatic vocals
Italics: Choir, soprano

Run, run, run for a life
you'll never see
Hide, Hide, hide for the end
no one had ever dreamt

Far, far, far from the core
the burning fear rise
Hark, hark, hark the serenade
of sorrow and death

As I follow the wind
in the shadows of a fading dream
My destiny is written
on the waves of the black sea

Collect your thoughts
Gather all feelings
Prepare for the greatest battle
inside your heart's dungeon
Hope is the only weapon

Every part worships the mother of water
for our sins to be forgotten
The tomb of purity lies open

I see the end comming towards me
Now, the time has come for us
3 paths before the gate of salvation
The time is racing and I'm standing still

Mournful tears for the dance of despair within my mind

Run, run, run for a life
you'll never see
Hide, Hide, hide for the end
no one had ever dreamt

Far, far, far from the cote
the burning fear rise
Hark, hark, hark the serenade
of sorrow and death

Die, die, die to be reborn
Try and save your soul

Don't resist
No one can
Life's too short
Open your heart
Open you heart to the truth
No one can escape from inner mirrors
Don't resist to your relfection
Life is too short to waste it in an illusion

The revelation of times
The revelation of life
Close your eyes
for we all know what awaits

Levifidus (Secta Prologue)

[Choir:]
Every part worships the mother of water
for our sins to be forgotten
The tomb of purity lies open
We learned to live in fire
No god can save us
Hold onto yourself

[Whispers:]
The strength is hidden to the deepest fount

A Path to Clarity

is my first album/compilation of songs
The very core of it its finding yourself, your way, your path in life

Here is the tracklist:

01. Levifidus ~ Secta Prologue
02. Desperate for Hope ~ Secta part I
03. Melancholic Euphoria
04. Timeless Beauty
05. Bright as Light ~ Secta part II
06. In A Lost Paradise
07. No Tears for The Black Queen
08. Nature’s Last Call
09. Impedimenta ~ Secta part III
10. Love on a Paper
11. Epos of Knowledge
12. Borderline ~ Secta Epilogue